What the hell should I do! Where in the World should I go to get my brain back!

God just do something , I am so damn sick of everything!

I wish to write but I am unable to decide what,

Maybe I should get myself so engaged with my books that I would have no time left for anything else, the lesser I think the better it would be for me. I don't know but I just don't wish to freak myself out and once again go back in the condition I was in months back. It was shattering and with lots of difficulties I have gathered myself together and I just want to engross myself somewhere so that I would keep all troubles out of my head and my life. I had clicked few pics for today but maybe this is not the right time as I feel. Maybe in my next post I will be better and calm till then everyone

Take Care and Be Happy!

~ Crazy Love ~

I had been thinking lately what to write and finally I found a sweet corner of my life which wasn't told yet, my crazy stupid love crushes*Grin*. Since my Childhood I have come across many guys and interestingly I have been friends with more of the boys as compared to girls as I found them to be better friends ( Totally My opinion! ). So I have decided to tell about my crushes one by one since the very beginning of my life. This is going to be really interesting!

My first crush since my childhood was a guy elder to me ( I am struggling within my mind to name him here or not! ). Lets talk about him by naming him as 'R' ( The initial of his name. ). So that time I was about three and a half years old ( Cheeky! ) and I used to go school with him and his elder brother ( Who too was Handsome! ). I was a little kid that time and used to be the favorite of all the aunties in my apartment. I used to spend half of my day at his home as aunt loved me a lot and used to keep me at her home only. I was a really shy kid that time but I found him very cute ( I feel like blushing at my crazy love now! ).  That was my first crush on a guy which is still on ( How shameless of me! ). He stayed with me or rather in my apartment for4-5 years and then his father got transferred and he went away to a new place ( I had felt so sad that time! ). I had never thought I would be seeing him again but luckily with help of ORKUT we found each other and came in contact with each other once again ( And I was so happy! ). And not just chatting he visited my home with his family a year back! ( I was stunned that day! ) That day was amazing and I sat like a silly spellbound girl in front of him the entire time he was there and to be true he has grown even more cuter and handsome in these years! *Grin* After he had left that day I was jumping like a idiotic bunny on the road that we met and we shook hands! ( I still wonder what my Angel was thinking and feeling that moment when I was jumping and hopping in front of him like idiots for meeting my Crazy Crush! ). It was wonderful to meet him after such a long time and we are in contact with each other and hopefully will always be. 

This was my First Crazy Crush story which is really Cute! And it was wonderful recalling all those moments back. This was my First story which will be followed with few more in my upcoming posts. 

Now this is what I wore for a random shopping day.

 This is one of my favorite sweatshirt which has story in its purchase. *Grin*

Well by this my post comes to an end and I'll be back very soon with a new one.

And my Angel I really wish to tell you

I miss you!

A Busy schedule these days kept me off from my photo-shoot but I'll start with it very quickly *Grin*. College schedules and practicals made my week hectic accompanied with watching movies everyday ( I so damn Love watching Movies! )

Lately I have been hearing a song named 'Emptiness' by Late Rohan Rathore, a student from IIT ( Indian Institute of Technology ) Guwahati ( A place in India ) who died due to Blood Cancer. This song made me wonder How Painful it would be for a person to realize that every passing day could be his Last Day in this World, isn't the knowledge of this fact equivalent to Death? Its really easy to say that I am not afraid of Death but only few people get to know how difficult it is to live with the knowledge that you are about to go far far away from the company of people you love for no fault of yours. And it hurts the most when someone denies your Love because of the fact that you are just a guest for few more days in this World! How can someone be so Stone-hearted! It saddens me only by thinking the situation of such person , I may not be able to bear this fact with a strong will. When your close ones abandon you for a single day you feel so denied so lost and so hurt, only this fact makes us realize how damn Strong-hearted those people are who live with the knowledge of this fact smiling all the time!

It is said few people hide their tears behind their smile for some reasons, but these people constantly smile to hide their deep sorrows behind it and keep their hurt within them. It is so so tough to live such a life!

Lyrics of the Heart-touching song 'Emptiness' :

Oh love of mine..

with a song and a whine..

You’re harsh and divine..

like truths and a lie..

but the tale end is not here..

I have nothing to fear..

for my love is yell of giving and hold on…

in the bright emptiness..

in a room full of it..

is the cruel mistress ho ho o…

I feel the sunrise..

that nest all hollowness..

for i have the way to go.. not come…

And i feel so lonely yea..

There’s a better place from this emptiness..

And i’m so lonely yea..

There’s a better please from this emptiness.

Tune mere jaana..

Kabhi nahi jana..

Ishq mera dard mera.. haaye…

Tune mere jaana..

Kabhi nahi jana..

Ishq mera dard mera …

Aashiq teraaa..

Bheed mein khoya rehta hai..

Jaane jahaan a..

Puchho toh itna kehta hai..

And i feel so lonely yea..

There’s a better place from  this emptiness..

And i’m so lonely yea..

There’s a better please from this emptiness.

The Hindi part of the Song ( Highlighted in Purple ) is the most touching part of this song.

I heartily salute to the spirit of all such people and I wish God never brings someone to this stage.

God Bless Everyone!

~ Feeling Blue ~

It was a wonderful day today with two of my Angels, it was like good old days were back in my life once again! I am simply loving this year as it is gifting me lots and lots of precious moments with people I love. My 'Big Proposal' idea is yet to go but I'll be waiting for that day *Grin*. This day was indeed very special with special people around me, who made me smile heartily once again! And Mother of my second Angel made me enjoy my day too, she is an absolute 'Super-momma'!

I wish I had a mother like her too..

My angel gifted me ear-rings which are in my ear-piercing right now. it is just too adorable and damn special! I hope you come back soon my angel, I'll miss you a lot. And my third Angel thank you too for making me feel special and always being there on my side. I love you!

Now on this very special day I chose to wear Blue, with a feeling of blue within me.

* I love the touch of Sunlight on my body, its just too soothing and purifying. *

My friends call me alien as I love being in the sunlight 24*7, boys say I am totally opposite to the typical girls in this case as girls usually avoid sunlight keeping in mind their complexion and stuff. Perhaps I a unique girl! *Grin*

* I love the shade of grey, along with simplicity it has classiness in it! Simplicity is the thing which makes a person different from others, plain yet so stylish! *

My last click for the post. 

I loved the day and I love the people I was with.

Thank you God!