Today I wish to start my blog by wishing my newest and dearest friend 'Vipul' A very very Happy Birthday! :) I wish you get everything you wish to in your life straight from my heart. I have a feeling that I couldn't get a proper gift and proper card for you although I really wanted to But somewhere I wish you liked the card as well as my gift. You have been and you are one of the sweetest and bestest friend I am left with and I really thank you for that. :)

Today I realized how a worries and problems disappear by a simple initiative of your Real Friends. I had spent my entire night , half the day crying and losing my confidence as well as mind but when my friends came to my rescue including Pratiksha, Arumit, Vipul and ofcourse my Angel, I couldn't help but smile once again! Thats the effect of friendship, love, bonding and affection that relieves your mind of every trouble peeping inside it and how amazingly soothes your soul and mind that Ahh! Someone Cares for you! And you are capable of doing something! This is the bond of Love and friendship that simply turns you back to what exactly you are! Afterall at the end of the day

Love is All I need!

I have made a recent realization that being in depression is one of the most depressing things!

Its like nothing seems good to you and you spend like an entire day without showing up a smile on your face and you are not even able to clarify the reason why is it happening to you! our mind is like out of thoughts and you stay silent throughout the day and nothing feels good to you. Man it simply appears so dumb! I don't know why have I spent my entire day being in this depressed state of mind and how many days are yet to go! I feel so sick of my life and everything happening around me. I like observing things and today while outing I noticed a few things which just added to my depressed mind! I saw the torture of old-age and understood why for some people death is much peaceful than life! I saw the joy of childhood, those jumping and hopping days which just reminded me how terrible child I have proved myself to be. Its simply like I have failed in each and every role I played in my life, I haven't been a good daughter, I haven't been a good family member, I haven't been a good friend ( maybe thats why my friends abandoned me! ), I haven't been a  good student, and somewhere I haven't been a good partner as I always got angry over small-stupid things or maybe over-reacted and made my partner cry. Well this means I haven't done anything good in my life yet, I haven't been a good person. Whoever had said 'Whenever you go through hard times instead of saying why me, say try me' , shouldn't have noticed that too much of this turns out to be 'Why always try me!' .

Life just doesn't go the way you want it to, or expect it to! Sometimes you are just forced to wake up no matter how Beautiful your dream is, no one bothers for that, the only thing people bother is what will people think about them if you are not waken up. At times I feel is this what I wanted to do in my life, run after a damned degree? No, I wanted to live life my way, accomplish things I desired and aspired for but I have been dragged into this life for the self-respect of other people who just never got me, never understood me and say themselves to be my family. I had never wanted the Life I am having today, a life I am living foe the sake of others, I wanted to live for myself. I have some good aspects in my life or should I say just one, the only one which understand me well enough but somewhere few aspects dominate it too, at times its like you have to consider few other things no matter how happy you were the moment before. It appears too hard at times to carry on with such a life which is yours yet not yours! Its just at times you discover you are a total stranger to your dreams and yourself for the sake of people who don't know you! 

And this realization hurts!

~ My True Diwali~

Hello everyone!

First of all Belated Happy Diwali to all my readers. For the Non-Indian readers Diwali is the 'Festival of Light' celebrated in India by lighting lots of lamps, candles and lights in one's house and decorating one's house.

This was the best Diwali I have ever had ( :) ), and the reason, well, I shared my Diwali with few children who could not afford to celebrate it so well and trust me it gives you real happiness when you realize that you are the reason for smile on some faces. Its like you find some peace within you filled with contentment. Well I totally loved it and enjoyed it a lot. :)

Other reason for the wonderful Diwali is shopping shopping and lots of shopping after a good deal of time. I shopped lots of dresses ( Whichever I found good enough ) and that too all of different style this time! No repetition! :D And any reason with the word 'Wonderful' will be incomplete unless I mention my Angel in it. Once again a walk with him after such a long time was totally blissful and simply too good.

It is always good to know that you are valued in someone's life ( Trust me it truly is ) and this is something I lack the most in my life but it was nice to hear from Some people close to my heart. :)

Overall it was a week to be remembered and cherished. This was all about my Diwali week. Now this post will be incomplete until I share my Celebration pics in it. :D

^ Rangoli made by me. :D

^ My dress this Diwali.

^ Traditional Dress-up.

This was all for this post of mine, will be back very soon with a new one.

Bye everyone! :)