I have made a recent realization that being in depression is one of the most depressing things!
Its like nothing seems good to you and you spend like an entire day without showing up a smile on your face and you are not even able to clarify the reason why is it happening to you! our mind is like out of thoughts and you stay silent throughout the day and nothing feels good to you. Man it simply appears so dumb! I don't know why have I spent my entire day being in this depressed state of mind and how many days are yet to go! I feel so sick of my life and everything happening around me. I like observing things and today while outing I noticed a few things which just added to my depressed mind! I saw the torture of old-age and understood why for some people death is much peaceful than life! I saw the joy of childhood, those jumping and hopping days which just reminded me how terrible child I have proved myself to be. Its simply like I have failed in each and every role I played in my life, I haven't been a good daughter, I haven't been a good family member, I haven't been a good friend ( maybe thats why my friends abandoned me! ), I haven't been a good student, and somewhere I haven't been a good partner as I always got angry over small-stupid things or maybe over-reacted and made my partner cry. Well this means I haven't done anything good in my life yet, I haven't been a good person. Whoever had said 'Whenever you go through hard times instead of saying why me, say try me' , shouldn't have noticed that too much of this turns out to be 'Why always try me!' .
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