There comes various moments in my life when I feel a chill moving down my body, a rush of emotions circulating in my body which, for an instant, takes my senses and logic away and leaves me with a sigh of despair as to what I couldn't achieve due to one or the other reasons.
I find myself most hurt when the realization comes to my mind that I couldn't achieve the career I always wanted to instead I am stuck with such a career which just deepens my scars and reminds me that my life is the result of a Broken trust which can never be brought back again! I find myself jealous as well as sad when I see people having beautiful relation with their family and accomplishing their goals in their lives, I feel sad for myself, for the situation I have been dragged into, for the relation I once shared with few people, for the goals I couldn't fulfill, for the dreams which shattered all at a time, for the loneliness I had decided to live with, for the life which seems to be just another test to pass for survival!
I had never wanted my life to turn out this way and bring me on such a stage where I would be combating against my own Dreams to prove my worth. I wish my life never turned out this way, hurting me to the core and testing me to its Extreme.
I am unable to understand what God has in store for me, its just a silver lining I am living with ,that
One day My Life will get Better
and
the shattered pieces of my Dreams will get together.
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