~ On a stand-still ~

These days life gifted my with an all new experience,

Pain.

This feeling,

I had never experienced before.

Its something like You are deeply hurt

but still

You keep smiling.

You have this weird type of pain inside you

and

You can't make out what is happening!

Its a feeling of hollowness from within,

as if You are on the verge of losing a precious part of your heart

and

You just can't stop it.

So helpless,

So uneasy

and

So Confused.

Its something like

killing You from the inside.

You wish to run away,

but

where?

to whom?

No answers.

You need something so desperately

but

it was never Yours,

it has to go,

far away..

And you still have to Smile

and

that is the toughest part.

God!

This thing,

this pain,

its actually killing me.

Maybe

Some things are not meant for You!

So many questions,

So many confusions,

So many thoughts,

Holding tears,

and above all this weirdness

accompanied with

desperation,

its so not good.

But I won't even prefer to be some charity case,

sympathetic type of.

For now I put a full-stop here,

lets see when this pain gets over.

God,

Please help me!