Yesterday was the day when I spent a beautiful and fun-filled time with my little brother and my Angel, Anshika Rawat.
We did anything and everything we could do,
We played games,
Screamed like kids,
Analyzed Barbie dolls,
Played with every toy in the kid's section,
Talked about books and movies,
Criticized pink mouses,
( Computer hardware )
Checked out foot-wears,
Checked out bags,
( Which none of us use :P )
Sat in a store as if we owned it,
Laughed,
Ate burgers,
Shared each other's thoughts and happenings in life
( like we always do .. ).
At times someone with funny hairs would come behind us and she used to tell me,
" Look at her hairs! "
and as I turned back I would burst into laughter and then I would say,
" Tum pitwaogi ek din! :P "
God!!
It was so so amazing being with her,
always is!
When she is around all of a sudden my World gets filled with joy and laughter
no matter how bad yesterday was!
I desperately wish that we could stay together all the time but well,
not all your wishes get fulfilled..
And then I met a friend of mine,
who was is quite upset me with me for designing my hands!
I am really really sorry,
I really didn't mean to do that
but well it just happened..
Then we I had cold-drinks
( He barely took 2-3 sips :P )
and shared some talks,
although I think I spent more of my time laughing for no reason. :P
And then he had to go to his destination and me to mine so we bid adieu and left for our respective places!
But it was certainly good to meet him after a long span. :)
People should keep bumping into each other, isn't it? ;)
And then I came back home and at night when I checked out my Facebook account ,
something gave me a mini heart-attack.
My Di has deleted me off her Friend list..
I kept staring the screen for sometimes hoping it would be some bad dream and would come to an end when I would open my eyes up but well it wasn't.
I could feel a painful sorrow creeping through my Heart,
I felt so so damn bad and all I could do was send her a message,
" You deleted me Di? "
Yes I knew the answer but I was shocked, sad and confused,
Why??
My Di,
She is the person I aspire to be like,
She is the only sister I have ever had
( No Blood relation but far better than blood relations ),
and when I found out She ...
That was equivalent to a terrible nightmare for me.
And then an old friend called me up and asked,
" What did You do??! "
I asked him,
" What did I do!! "
He said,
" He is all into tears just because of You .. !! "
I had no answer.
How many answers do I have to give,
I can't bear this feeling of guilt and
people around me accusing me for ruining Someone's life,
That too my near and dear ones.
God!!
Anshika I wish You were here with me right now,
I so damn need You!
Its all going so so bad,
I just can't bear all this ..
God please help me!!
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