Monday, April 30, 2012

~ Back again! ~


Heyi my Love, my baby Blush! :*
Missed You like hell sweetheart!
Had no net card since past few months so couldn’t visit You Love,
although I desperately desperately wanted to!
I know my Blush won’t stay mad at me for a long time! ;)

So talking about life right now,
Tears have blurred my vision!
Seems I am failing everywhere,
Love, family and career!
Things have turned out to be pretty much unexpected,
At times I find myself moving away from things
But the very next moment I find myself longing for them!!
Confusion dominates!
I really wish to have a clear view of things
And know what I want and what is worth my pain!
It sucks when you are blamed by the One person you would gladly sacrifice your life for.
Yes I fucking am in love, madly in love with my guy,
My craziness knows no limit when it comes to him
But I believe that is something he won’t believe ever!
No matter what I do,
my stupid negatives always dominate my positives
and I am bound to fucking shut my mouth and just listen!
(Sorry for the language love, I have started using ‘the’ language frequently!)

Yesterday my Love was in hospital,
The feeling and fear of losing him took my breath away.
Despite all the issues and fights between us, he texted me,
‘I love You!... Don’t erase me baby.. ‘
Reading this I burst into tears,
His face, his smile flashed in front of my eyes and I realized
Nothing else matters when it comes to him,
My ego, my pride, my anger, my moods, just nothing!
I would give up on everything for him
and I just decided right then I won’t fight him again!
Finding myself so close to losing him,
I could sense my heartbeat halting!
The things I have felt for and with him are emotions I had never ever experienced before in my life with any other guy.
I tried and still try my best to be the best for him,
To be the Only One he needs!!
Let us see how things turn out in future,
I just hope for the best!

There are lots and lots of things to share Blush,
But not in a single post!
I’ll be back soon love!



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