~ Engineer or not!? ~

Another horrid day in my college life,

the day when my results are out!!

God!!

How much I hate these days!

Well I am a bad engineer,

like really really bad one 

but

this horrid engineer is trying to become a good one

just for You Papa..

My attempts of being a good engineer have failed till now 

but well I suppose I'll keep trying 

but the thing I am afraid of is,

Will You trust me Papa,

Will You believe in me?

I am in urgent need of that 

but well I don't know if I'll get that or not.. 

I hope for the best Papa.

Even I am sick of those low scores and backs 

but Papa I really try my best to cope up with it,

to score well 

but something or the other happens 

and my results shock me!

And then there is this regret of not being able to score well once again,

and letting You down!

I wish I could tell You Papa that your daughter is a writer,

I wish You might read my poems and praise me,

I wish You would be proud of me..

But well I suppose all your wishes don't come true ..

I am sad for myself but more than that I am sad that I led You down !

I am so afraid every time to see my results and more importantly tell them to You,

especially when they are so bad!

I still have the hope alive in my mind that I'll do good

but

Will You give me one more chance Papa??

Hoping for the Best,

God guide me please!