~ All I need is... ~

Heyiii Blush

( I wish Someone would say the same to me too.. :( )

I hope You are fine baby unlike me.

These days all my time is occupied by a hectic schedule

including

college,

internship,

Doing assignments that please my Heart

and

Missing somethings very very badly.

My friends who once asked me to shut up and stop laughing now keep asking me

'What happened',

'Are you fine',

etc etc.

To which I just smile and say,

'Yes I am fine.'

Its something like nothing makes me want to smile these days.

I feel lost all the time.

Its not thoughts that make me feel lost,

it is some type of emptiness within and around which just keeps making me sad.

I feel uneasy with people around,

especially at my home'

I simply don't feel like coming back here.

My solitude comforts me.

I keep visiting the terrace of my college,

the gentle wind and undisturbed silence there makes me feel alive and better.

Its all so so weird and so not good.

I smile,

but only to assure my friends that I am fine,

its not from the Heart

( Its not the Akshay type... ).

I laugh,

when something is really funny

and I am very thankful to my friends for that.

I never felt this bad about the life I am in,

about the place I am forced to live,

about the surrounding

but right now

I feel sad about each and everything.

I wish at times that I would look around

and then

the Unexpected would happen

and I would just stay speechless, filled with joy,

but I know even that is not going to happen.

I look out of the Window

and I can feel my thoughts

drifting away

far away

to

the rain,

the terrace,

the evening,

the room,

those waiting eyes..

to everything related to You.

I knew it was going to be tough,

but never knew so tough...

God!

Please help me!