Blush... :(
Once again its raining outside and it is raining inside too.
I have never ever felt this lonely before,
its all just adding to my pain, to the agony I feel..
So not good.
Every time it rains outside,
my heart weeps inside with those tears pouring down my eyes.
Nothing comforts,
Nothing Consoles,
Every thing appears to rip me apart.
Anxiety takes over and over again.
At times I wish to cry my heart out
but
tears refuse to come out
as if my eyes are tired shedding tears every now and then.
Things have drastically changed for me,
things that made me smile once force a tear out of my eye now,
renders me helpless,
depressed,
in pain.
I lie on my bed
don't know when sleep takes over,
get up late night,
sit on the chair,
watching out of the window,
sometimes the artificial stars on the ceiling of my room,
or the rotating fan
and
silently cry..
Then watch the Sun coming to life again
with a realization
that
my tired eyes need to rest again
So get back to bed.
Back to sleep once again.
I have no idea what I am turning into and Why,
whatever it is, I hope comes to an end soon,
it seems unbearable now.
God.... :'(
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