~ Moments :) ~

Heyii Baby Blush! :)

Hope You are doing fine! :)

Right now I am hopping on my chair listening to 'Dirty Dancer' by Enrique

( That guy seriously got some killer looks! :P

Looks really hot and I love the way he dresses himself up! ).

So my mind right now is partially occupied with the track and

rest of it is thinking about Yesterday evening

( Which was beautiful!!! ).

I spent my entire weekend roaming outside my house.

Firstly I went for a haircut as I desperately needed one!

( And right now I am loving my wild hairs! :D )

Then I had some college-related shopping to do

and then finally came the evening

( The most awaited part of a day! ).

Evenings are a wonderful time to spend with loved ones!

And that too when You have someone so so so damn special beside You! :)

For the first time,

I discovered the charm and beauty of lying on the grass ,

beneath the starlit sky watching the bright and shiny stars and occasionally the person You are with!

Beautiful indeed! :)

( Have no words for that! )

Somehow those eyes make me feel so special,

that look in those eyes is so comforting.

Goshhh I love it!

Simply makes me forget everything. :)

I love the way every time I get ready to leave,

You hold me back and look at me saying,

' Please don't go! '

I simply am not able to deny that request ever!

How can I say no when I myself never ever wish to go?!

I get back to my position,

next to You! :)

Watching the surrounding,

the sky,

the stars,

the moon

and 

also airplanes! :D

( I become sooooooo happy when I see one! :D )

Above all watching You!

I don't know how but You give me goosebumps .. every time! :)

Wow!!

Loved each and every moment

( EVERY! ).

I just have no words to describe that feel right now.

All I know is 

I Lowe You!

Then today, in the college,

one of my friends brought up the issue that hurts me the most,

the one I would never be able to forgive myself for..

She was just talking about that and suddenly I experienced a flashback of all those moments,

that last meeting,

those words,

that shaky voice,

those trembling hands,

and then there it was,

Yes I was crying!

Those tears silently came into my eyes and then out of it.

I could feel the pain within me,

a pain for how things were and 

how they have turned out,

a pain for losing someone I cared so much for.

Yes it is tough ,very tough to let You go,

but I have no other option,

I wish there was some option in which I could keep You in my life,

along with the current happening in my life,

but I guess I am not worthy enough.

Every time that statement passes through my mind,

' It was nice meeting You.. '

It is so so painful,

Tears come out of nowhere,

even now they are there..

I never wanted to hurt You, never,

How do I tell You, how ..

I care a hell lot for You,

I won't be able to see indifference in those eyes,

if they ever meet mine again..

I just wont be able to .. :(

( I am sorry, really am .. sorry .. :( )

I just hope You stay happy .. that is all I can say right now !

God bless You!

Once again I am stuck somewhere between happiness and sorrow,

and both are extreme at their places!

A pain creeps through my heart for losing so integral part of my life and

at the same time it celebrates for the new feel it is experiencing,

the feel of Love!

Standing amidst these emotions,

I am not able to understand the things I am undergoing.

But once again, 

some people simply don't let me stay sad for a long time,

Lowe You for that! :)

Take care Blush!

I'll be back very soon! :)

Hoping for the Best for everyone!