~ Random ~

Hey Blush! 

Finally the weekend! :)

Right now,

there are so many things going on

and

I believe

most of them are out of my control.

I am unable to understand,

where exactly do I go wrong,

every time!?

I am unable to understand 

what exactly should I do?

to make things better.

No idea,

simply no idea at all.

I find myself getting deeply hurt,

I find my pillow soaked in tears during the nights

and yet

I smile,

for people around me.

I chose to hide the hurt deep within.

I never forced anyone for anything,

never will,

but that simply doesn't mean,

that I would be able to stop myself from getting hurt,

I would be able to stop the tears from coming out of my eyes.

No, I can't.

I am a human and somethings are not in my control.

I can only hide it,

and I guess that is exactly what time demands of me

at the instant.

I only wish that the clouds of complexities and confusions would disappear soon

and the bright ray of joy and hope will re-enter my life once again.

Every human has a saturation-point,

and I hope things get better

before I reach mine.

I don't wish to lose myself once again,

simply wont be able to recollect myself this time.

There are moments when I feel like,

deactivating my Facebook account,

stop visiting You Blush,

stop seeing my friends,

just living alone with the hurt

and 

cry.. cry my pain out..

Lets see what do I do.

God help me !