~ Expecting too much? ~

Heyii Blush! :)

I know You must be rocking Baby! ;)

Today was one of the bestest day of my life

( Sometimes grammar should be ignored! :P ).

As I would call it,

the Perfect Rain! :)

It totally was... !

I spent more than 4 hours on my college roof,

it began with the company of loneliness and gentle wind,

and ended in the arms of Someone in the rain

( Perfect! :) ).

The evening was truly beautiful,

Running throughout the roof without my slippers :D ,

Watching the rainbow,

( Yes! Finalllyyy! Two of them! :D ),

Watching the color-changing clouds,

Lying down on the roof using our bags as our pillows,

Feeling the wonderful wind,

Trying to dance :D,

Walking without stepping on the roof,

And finding my comfort .. :)

( And I have this feeling right now that I just can't define everything in words.. :) ).

Its wonderful,

how even now,

time fells short every time,

and

the chills simply come back over and over again!

Loved it! :)

Despite the wonderful evening,

there was something that shouldn't have happened

( Or maybe I don't know why exactly that happened.. ).

I really wonder,

Am I expecting too much??

All of a sudden,

I found myself quite upset in the noon.

I spent my entire time expecting,

I would give Something I had especially brought for Someone to Him,

but well,

that didn't happen due to some reasons,

and then something came into my mind,

and I found myself sad.

And that is exactly why I went on the roof,

I go there when I feel sad..

I know it wasn't His fault 

and I didn't mean to be rude.

but

it happened. :(

I don't know what was on my mind that time,

I only wanted 5 minutes,

and it felt really bad when I couldn't have them throughout a day..

I felt my thoughts drifting away,

my mind going blank,

and then ,

tears..

Don't know why ,

don't know when,

but I could feel their presence.

I know this wasn't supposed to go this way but it did,

and

I am Sorry for that! :(

I know I am stupid,

but I didn't mean to.. really didn't..

I was feeling so bad when You stayed although You didn't want to,

'cause of my stupid mood!

All I wanted to see was that cute smile on your face,

like You every time had when I brought something for You,

but 

I ended up making it disappear

( I am so so bad! ).

May be I should learn to keep my mood

as well as

my tears

in my control.. !

I Lowe You!

And yet I say,

Thank You God for the wonderful evening!