~ Life : Look beyond the Imperfections ~

Blush!

Baby I am feeling very very bad right now,

tell me what should I do,

please help me.. :'(

I don't want to drown in the ocean of griefs and sorrows,

I don't want to be misunderstood always,

I don't want to stay alone always,

I don't want to live like this ..

Nothing seems to help baby,

just nothing.

I can't find a place to go.

When I close my eyes

past flashes within them

and 

I miss Something I lost,

Miss it very very badly.

I can't sleep at nights,

I feel so lonely..

Every night ends with guilt

and some tears falling on my pillow.

I ask my eyes not to cry 

but they simply don't listen ..

I am so so helpless

and when my temper goes high at times,

I do insane things!

I act crazy..

My hand is a perfect example of my craziness,

anyone who sees it looks at me with pity,

thinking what I have turned into..

The girl who always smiled

can't even fake a smile

and

would soon turn into

a girl who smiles with tears in her eyes...

I might be back again Blush,

I have nowhere to go.

Most of the doors are shut for me

and the one that might be open,

I don't have enough courage to knock on them

after breaking them badly ..

Blankness overcomes ........