Heyii Blush!
I was just watching my favorite part of ‘F.R.I.E.N.D.S’!
And believe me it is so damn heart-touching, just makes me
want to cry, the perfect marriage proposal!
I have just tuned in ‘Wonderful tonight’, the track played
during that moment ( which is beautiful
too by the way! ). Once again its night and I am here all alone.
So I am the type of person who doesn’t really like marriage
in stuff or as we say the career before marriage type but well despite my
disliking for the marriage there are a few moments in my life that I’ll always
remember. Let us say there are two beautiful, very beautiful moments in my
life, one was a drunken mistake and other an overwhelming surprise. Those incidents
and my reactions actually made me wonder about the things I wanted and
surprisingly the disliking didn’t matter then because it was the guy I love.
Well I guess there is one person in everyone’s life who
makes everything perfect, the one person who when comes in front of you all
your logic, all your reasoning jumps out of the window and love takes over. I am
glad as well as lucky to have found that one person. But well love always comes
with a cost and it is hard to maintain the happy relation forever, for there
are stupid fights, issues, problems and stuff but I guess things that are meant
to be always find a way to stick together!
I am missing someone a lot right now and I would really love
it if he would have called me knowing how the nights are for me. It doesn’t feel
right when I have other people by my side when I need him, so I push everyone
else away too and stay alone till it becomes unbearable to me. I am just a kid
inside and I do get scared.. and being alone sucks!
I am a little freaked out regarding my academic results,
they’ll be out any minute now and if things don’t go fine I am really going to
be screwed up, real bad! So fingers crossed! Despite everything, all the
tensions, I am not able to take my eyes off my cell phone! Every time it blinks
my heart skips a beat expecting it would be him but then disappointment comes
over and I get sad.
I have become a stupid person, I just stopped everything for
one thing and sadly it doesn’t even matter. I should really get a life of my
own! I wonder how it would be like to be all free, no one to question, no one
to stop, just total freedom! Being so bounded by my family I crave for freedom,
I dream for it and I can’t wait for it! It’s getting harder and harder for me,
really want to get drunk and get some good proper sleep! I also crave for sleep
now. I have become a lazy ass, on the bed entire day and still tired! I really
need to do some stuff and just do something, I am tired of being on the bed
entire day like a sick person and staring my phone all the time!
Just tuned in ‘Sexy
Bitch’! David Guetta makes me want to move and groove, no matter what mood I am
in! :P
So I am kind of dancing and typing at the same time, and yea
it is my wish to attend his concert at least once in my lifetime! Damn I want to
hear these sexy beats live and dance my ass off! :P .. See I actually am in
good mood now, credits to DG! :D
So now I am wondering I should make another of my wish list
( I think that is a great idea! :D )
I am going to catch up in a while Blush.
Love you! :*
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