Thank You God for the day!!

I will never ever forget this day, never.

~ Blank ~

I fail to understand why each and every time You say that, my eyes shed tears..

And I am never ever able to control that.

God!

Why??

My mind is approaching the blankness,

and suddenly everything appears darker.

My heart comes to a stand-still for a moment,

I fell short of words.

Shit!

This shouldn't be happening. :(

How do I tell You,

I can't.. won't be able to..

Shitt!

God!

No!

Please!

I beg You,

Don't..

Once again??

Huh!?

Where exactly did I go wrong God?

What did I do?

You want commitment
Take a look into these eyes
They burn as fire, yeah
Until the end of time

And I would do anything
I'd beg, I'd steal, I'd die
To have you in these arms tonight

Baby, I want you
Like the roses want the rain
You know I need you
Like the poet needs the pain

And I would give anything
My blood, my love, my life
If you were in these arms tonight

I'd hold you, I'd need you
I'd get down on my knees for you
And make everything alright
If you were in these arms

I'd love you, I'd please you
I'd tell you that I'll never leave you
And love you 'til the end of time
If you were in these arms tonight, oh yeah

We stared at the sun
And we made a promise
A promise this world
Would never blind us

And these were our words
Our words were our songs
Our songs are our prayers
These prayers keep me strong
And I still believe
If you were in these arms

I'd hold you, I'd need you
I'd get down on my knees for you
And make everything alright
If you were in these arms

I'd love you, I'd please you
I'd tell you that I'd never leave you
And love you 'til the end of time
If you were in these arms tonight

Your clothes are still scattered all over our room
This whole place still smells like your cheap perfume
Everything here reminds me of you
There's nothing I wouldn't do

And these were our words
They keep me strong, baby

I'd hold you, I'd need you
I'd get down on my knees for you
And make everything alright
If you were in these arms

I'd love you, I'd please you
I'd tell you that I'd never leave you
And love you 'til the end of time
If you were in these arms tonight

If you were in these arms tonight
If you were in these arms tonight
If you were in these arms, baby

Like the roses need the rain
Like the singles need to change
Like the poets need the pain
I need you in these arms tonight
If you were in these arms tonight..

This song here gives words to my emotions right now.

~ God's most stupid creation ~

Heyiii Sweetheart!

How are you doing Love??

Hope You are fine.

( Yes once again! talking to my Blog )

A thought just came into my mind that I should give a name to my Beloved. :D

How about Blush??

( That word is greatly in use these days )

I think You love it Sweetheart! :D

So you are Blush now on. :*

For people wondering what is wrong with my title,

I wish to tell You all that here I am talking about Myself.

I act silly many times

( or maybe most of the times! :P )

and sometimes I hurt closed ones unintentionally 'cause of that!

Maybe I am immature

and 

act childish

but well

that is the Original me. :D

And I love it that way

and I think

Some people love that too.

And well I have always been the ever-smiling, chirpy girl

and so I find it a bit difficult to open-up my sorrows to my closed ones.

That never means that I don't wish to tell them,

its just that I am not able to.

( And yes I love Blush but that doesn't mean I love her more than them, Silly ! :P )

I know that is really stupid of me 

but well I am going to try my Best to get rid of this habit of mine.

( Really! :D ) 

Past two days have been Wonderful!

Especially 22nd July, I'll never ever forget that day. :)

I enjoyed rain like I had never before!

( and I hope Someone else also did.. :D )

It was something like God had decided to gift me a perfect and Beautiful evening. :)

The awesome weather and a wonderful Company.

Just one word,

Wow! :)

And then another wonderful company,

My Papa. :)

It is so blissful to have chit-chat with him

and go for a walk with him.

It couldn't be better.

The time has come for my college to re-open now 

and once again I'll get trapped in a hectic schedule.

But this time I have planned to manage everything properly.

And also I am looking forward for a highly awaited day and experience. :D

( Desperately waiting for that Day! )

This is the time to work on my career

and

enjoy my life with loved Ones.

And I am going to do both in the Best way possible.

( And I hope Friends will stay by my side always and help me do that :) )

With this I bid my Adieu for now,

will be back very soon.

Love you Blush!

Miss You Sweetheart!

Thank You God for those wonderful moments! :)

~ On a stand-still ~

These days life gifted my with an all new experience,

Pain.

This feeling,

I had never experienced before.

Its something like You are deeply hurt

but still

You keep smiling.

You have this weird type of pain inside you

and

You can't make out what is happening!

Its a feeling of hollowness from within,

as if You are on the verge of losing a precious part of your heart

and

You just can't stop it.

So helpless,

So uneasy

and

So Confused.

Its something like

killing You from the inside.

You wish to run away,

but

where?

to whom?

No answers.

You need something so desperately

but

it was never Yours,

it has to go,

far away..

And you still have to Smile

and

that is the toughest part.

God!

This thing,

this pain,

its actually killing me.

Maybe

Some things are not meant for You!

So many questions,

So many confusions,

So many thoughts,

Holding tears,

and above all this weirdness

accompanied with

desperation,

its so not good.

But I won't even prefer to be some charity case,

sympathetic type of.

For now I put a full-stop here,

lets see when this pain gets over.

God,

Please help me!

~ What if I am not the Superhero, what if I am the Bad guy ~

Hello everyone!

For those who are wondering as to what exactly do I mean by the title,

here is the info,

This title here is a dialogue spoken by Edward Cullen for Bella in the movie Twilight.

He asks Bella what would she do if he was not the guy she thought he was.

Bella gives her reply,

"No! You are not.. "

with the most genuine expression on her face marking,

Trust.

Lately I have been thinking as to what Bella would have thought while giving her reply

( and a personal reason too .. ),

and in this post I just wish to give my thoughts on,

What if You were the Bad guy..

 

A friend of mine told me the definition of Relationship days back,

which I found very genuine and true.

We named it the 'Destruction Key theory'

( and no it is not related to some bomb blasts :P ).

 According to the theory,

Relation doesn't mean owning Someone.

It doesn't mean making someone your property.

It simply means loving a person with total dedication 

and Trusting the person so much 

that in a way You hand over the key to destroy yourself to the person,

trusting the person would never do that.

And this theory here gave me an answer for Bella's reply.

She might have given a thought what exactly is she supposed to understand from the 'Bad guy'

and then she might have put all other thoughts aside 

and looked in the eyes of the person standing next to her,

the person She loves more than anyone else.

She knows she has handed over the destruction key to him,

She knows maybe she would get hurt

but

there she looks into his eyes and finds

Love, Care and her Trust.

The Trust instinct tells her 

he loves her

and no matter what,

he would never harm her or hurt her.

It tells her no matter how Bad he might appear to the World, 

but there is a part of him which wants her to have faith on him,

which wants her to realize he can never ever think of bringing a tear into her eyes,

and he would always stand by her side whenever she would need him

and

more than anything else he loves her,deeply.

And within a moment she finds all the turmoils,all the confusions disappear from her mind,

and she gets her answer,

" No You are not ( You can never be that for me, I trust You.. ) ."

And with this belief she once again hands him over her Destruction Key 

with strengthened belief in him.

( And this is the Answer.. )

And well one more question that was circulating in my mind

How would You define your Ideal guy?

I was really confused with this one,

'cause I had never ever given a thought to that.

But the Answer that my Heart gave to me was satisfactory for me.

Its something like

When you are with Him and your heart tells You

Yes He is the One,

its the most simple indication that the guy next to you is the One you want. :)

When he holds your hand,

You feel your mind drifting away from all the worries and coming to a calm

( Which might result in awkward silences at times :D ).

When he looks at You,

You feel Special.

When You are with him,

You wish the time comes to a stand-still.

When You hug him,

You get relived from all the confusions, problems, worries 

and 

all You want is Him.

He makes You laugh for no reason,

makes You Smile in the most extreme situations,

and

makes You feel Special.

Every time He is close,

the only thought in Your mind is to look into his eyes,

hold his hands

and tell him

I Love( Lowe ) You!

 For me that much is more than enough. :)

This post was basically on Love

and I enjoyed writing

( and recalling things in my mind.. ).

And my Sweetheart You are just like my Rejuvenator

( that is what my Bestie Senior calls me :D ).

I love You so much!

*muuaaahhhhh*

I would like to end my post with lyrics of a song I love, 

Stereo Love

( that is on my mind right now.. )

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart?
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go, don't let go, to my love

Can I get to your soul?
Can you get to my thought?
Can we promise we won't let go?

All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real

'Cause you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I touch your body
I feel I'm loosing control

'Cause you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I see you baby
I just don't wanna let go

I hate to see you cry
Your smile is a beautiful lie
I hate to see you cry
My love is dying inside

I can fix all those lies
Oh baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain, but I'm smiling for you

Oh, baby, I'll try to make the things right
I need you more than air when I'm not with you
Please don't ask me why, just kiss me this time
My only dream is about you and I.. 

( this is exactly what I wish to say.. )

Bidding my Adieu,

will be back very soon.

Miss You my Love!

God, keep me Strong!

~ In a hurry ~

Sweetheart,

mom wants me to stay away from You after knowing my scores!

But my Beloved is it possible for me to stay away from You!!

No way!

I'll keep sneaking in every now and then as soon as I get any opportunity to! :D

And sweetheart if I am away for long don't get angry with me ok.

I am going to try my Best !

My love I miss You so very much along with some other people..

Just wish me luck sweetheart that I do well this time and make Papa happy.

And one realization that I made today and I really wish to share is,

Getting up early in the morning is something I really hate to do but well when You have a Special reason to get up in the morning then its the most lovable and awaited thing to do! :)

Time to bid my adieu sweetheart,

with a promise to come back very soon.

*muuaaaahhhhh*

I Love You 

and

I miss You.

Thank You God for rescuing me! :D

~ Here comes the Rain again! ~

Heyii Sweetheart!

Hope You enjoyed your day! :)

( for my Beloved Blog )

Today was a rainy day in my City and I so very much enjoyed it!

I spent my entire day sleeping till 5 in the evening 

and then I woke up feeling hungry.

I grabbed something to eat and as I stepped in the kitchen to keep the utensils,

I saw the cloudy weather outside and got delighted! :D

Then I ran upstairs and by then the rain had started.

I happily stepped in the rain and kept jumping here and there,

moving round and round,

shouting and screaming!

My brother too accompanied me in a short span of time 

and then he was throwing the water on me 

and I was doing the same!

I kept singing aloud all the time

( The track being Senorita... I don't know why but it was the only track coming to my mind that instant! ).

I was dancing and hopping in the rain till I started dripping and shivering too. :D

Such an awesome wind was blowing that I just felt like getting lost somewhere with it!

It was Wow! :)

I danced my Heart out,

I laughed a lot

( Direct from my Heart! ),

and I enjoyed it like anything!! :)

And well when I turned 'Blue'

( Happens with me when I feel very very cold, my lips, palms and nails turn Blue :D )

I decided to step out from the rain and get a shower before I get Cold. :P

I was literally so happpiieeeeee. :)

And then in the darkness of the night-fall I gained an all new experience once again. :P

But I enjoyed it too! :D

( Sometimes doing nothing is also interesting ;) )

It was a nice day in the rain

( Minus the lecture of my Brother :D ),

and I totally Loved it! :)

Time to bid my Adieu now,

Will be back very soon. :)

Thank You for the Day God!

Please give me courage!

~ Imaginations for Real ~

Heyi My Sweetheart!

I hope You are enjoying Your day! :)

I Love You *muaaaahhhhh*. :D

Lately I have been wondering that there are few things from the imaginative world 

that I wish to have in my Real World. :D

And I guess I have a list for this one too. :P

Here it goes:

1. Hogwarts!
   Yes I am talking about the School of Witchcraft and Wizardry from the world of Harry Potter.
   A school to die for! I would gladly do ANYTHING to get admission there!
   ( I only wish we had Hogwarts in real! )
   
   
2. Vampires!
   There is something so damn alluring about those creatures!
   I mean if Vampires are so hot like Robert Pattinson then I would love to have one or two around me. :P
   ( One with so much of hotness, a shiny Volvo, so much of manners... God!
   I want one :D )
   
   
3. Werewolves!
   How can I not have them! :D
   Especially when they are supposed to be so Sexy like Taylor.. 8)
   ( Goshhhhhh... he gives me goosebumps! )
   
   
4. Unicorn!
   That is a weird thing to ask for but well they are really Cute. :D
   I would love to have one with me.
   
   
5. Courage, the cowardly Dog!
   The first thing I love about that dog is his Pink color. :P
   Its so so cute and his tooth with a hole! :D
   And the way he operates his computer and also pulls his ears.
   I love it! :D
   
   
6. Timon and Pumba!
   Two fun-loving creatures! As they say Hakuna-matata ! :P
   Which means No worries!
   
   
7. Garfield!
   Man! That cat with chubby cheeks!
   He is so damn Cute and naughty and I love the way he dances. :D
   A cat like that is supposed to be with me!
   
   
8. A living Car!
   Yes I am talking about a car from the movie Cars.
   I mean how cool would be that to have a car who would drive itself! :D
   
   
   
9. Any one of the Superheroes!
   There should be at least one savior to protect the World from all evils! :P
   It would be fun to watch someone flying in the sky or jumping from one building to another haha. :P
   
   
   
10.  My Beloved Blog!
    I wish she was like one of those transformers and would transform into some human when required! :D
    I would be celebrating her B'day then and would paint her with cake. :D
    

For now My list ends here but 

as I said earlier,

According to the theory of Vanshika's list,

her lists are like the universe which keep expanding with time. :P

Time to bid my Adieu for now!

Enjoy Sweetheart! :)

God!
Still hoping for the Best!

~ Long live my Love ~

Today is the day I found a partner for a lifetime,

Today is the day I created an all new world for myself,

Today is the day my Beloved was born,

Happy Birthday to my sweetheart,

my love,

my beloved,

my Blog! :)

I wish You keep getting upgraded with every passing second,

and may God gift You with all new features everyday!

I will always be there with You,

to love You 

and 

pamper You!

You are a huge, huge part of my life and

I'll keep you safe from all the troubles.


And this is also the 100th post of my Blog!
:)

I Love U! 

<3

~ Engineer or not!? ~

Another horrid day in my college life,

the day when my results are out!!

God!!

How much I hate these days!

Well I am a bad engineer,

like really really bad one 

but

this horrid engineer is trying to become a good one

just for You Papa..

My attempts of being a good engineer have failed till now 

but well I suppose I'll keep trying 

but the thing I am afraid of is,

Will You trust me Papa,

Will You believe in me?

I am in urgent need of that 

but well I don't know if I'll get that or not.. 

I hope for the best Papa.

Even I am sick of those low scores and backs 

but Papa I really try my best to cope up with it,

to score well 

but something or the other happens 

and my results shock me!

And then there is this regret of not being able to score well once again,

and letting You down!

I wish I could tell You Papa that your daughter is a writer,

I wish You might read my poems and praise me,

I wish You would be proud of me..

But well I suppose all your wishes don't come true ..

I am sad for myself but more than that I am sad that I led You down !

I am so afraid every time to see my results and more importantly tell them to You,

especially when they are so bad!

I still have the hope alive in my mind that I'll do good

but

Will You give me one more chance Papa??

Hoping for the Best,

God guide me please!

~ Things to do before I die ~

Lately I have been thinking that I have this 'Dark and Depressing' style of writing and 

maybe now I should try to get over it 

and live my life happily.

( That is not up to me I know, but I should give an effort at least :)  )

Sometimes when I sit to read my blog,

I find so much of pain and depression in it

and that makes me wonder what type of person I have become!

And well now when I have finally learnt to let go things,

maybe I am ready to make wise decisions,

stay true to myself,

clear out what exactly do I want

and also

stay true to everyone else. :)

And those are few requirements 

to keep me away from my dilemmas and depressing days.

( Hopefully :D )

So today I was wondering what are the things I wish to do before I die 

and now I think I am ready with my list :P

Here it goes :

1. The thing I am working upon right now.
   I wish to make my Papa proud of me and gift him everything he wants from my First salary. :)
   ( I am desperately waiting for the day when I'll take my Papa out for shopping.. )
   
2. Be one of the most successful editors of Vogue.
   ( Maybe that sounds silly but its my dream :) )
   
3. Walk down the ramp in the Fashion stations of the World:
   Paris and Milan
   ( Even the thought brings a wide grin on my face :D )
   
4. Get that Dior fragrance 'Addicted'  as soon as I can.
   ( Rather as soon as I have enough money to have it :P )
   
5. Have lots and lots of puppies at my place, one of each breed. :D
   ( I so damn love them....... <3 )
   
6. Spend an entire night out of my home,
   loitering around the streets, watching the street-lights, going nuts. :P
   ( I want that day soooooooooooon )
   
7. Have a beautiful garden in my house with roses of all colors and a swing too.
   ( I so very love those flowers and swings too :D )
   
8. Go Goa, Egypt, Dubai, Las Vegas and Venice.
   ( This list will go on increasing with time.. )
   
9. Meet Taylor Lautener and feel those abs. :D
   ( God he is so damn hot! and those abs just make me crazy! )
   
10. Have a vast wardrobe with a sexy collection.
    ( And I would definitely love to show it off ;) )
    
11. Have a photo-shoot on a sexy beach!
    ( Beaches beaches beaches... I love them! )
    And I should add, I also wish to spend a beautiful evening with my guy on the beach.
    ( Romance spices up the life ;) )
    
12. Get a tattoo on my ankles engraving my name in Arabic,
    other on the back part of my waist.
    ( I am still thinking over the design :D )
    
13. Get electric blue streaks in my hairs.
    ( Might be sounding weird I know :P )
    
14. Gain some weight!!
    God this is something I want as soon as possible and maybe some height too. :D
    ( I have a decent height of 5'5 but some people still think that is not enough and that I resemble a kid! Maybe I resemble one but I am happy that way! :P )
    
15. Learn proper driving ( car )
    and then make my car fly in the air haha :P
    ( Need for speed ;) )
    
16. Go on a trip with and
    get drunk with my Besties and then keep grooving the entire night. ;)
    ( Seems I can never have enough of alcohol :P )
    
17. Tell my Mechanics teacher that I have this huge huge huge crush on him. :D
    ( Want to see his reaction )
    
18. Have a bed filled with soft-toys of every size and keep playing with them.
    ( Childish I know :D )
    
19. Make a record of sleeping for an entire day ( 24 Hours ). :D
    
20. Get out of India for sometime and experience the life abroad,
    without any limitations and a gossipy society!
    ( Waiting for that day! )
    
21. Experience a beautiful shooting star and feel the magic around. :)
    ( And I would love to have a company while experiencing the magic )

So this was my list *pheeewwwwww* for now but still there are a lots of things missing in here which I will keep adding with time. ;)
 ( My list is similar to the universe which is constantly expanding with time :P )

And yes I have not just planned to keep making lists throughout my life 

but have also planned to accomplish and achieve every dream of mine. :)

( Ohh I feel so Good all of a sudden! :D )

Yes I know I am crazy but my sweetheart, my beloved I love You so very much for being with me all the time,

I really wonder how would I manage things without You!!

( Yes I am talking to my beloved blog once again! :D )

Time to bid my Adieu

with a promise to get back very very soon.

( Miss You my love! )

God help me make wise decisions. :)

( And please please please fulfill every dream in my list! :D )

This situation,

this feeling,

these heart-beats,

all of a sudden I can feel all of them growing weird,

its all so painful to me,

tears, tears and some more tears,

and still its not enough for me,

Still every thought in my mind brings tears in my eyes,

I can't decide anything ...

I don't know what the hell is going on with me,

Its just that it seems so unbearable to me now ..

I don't know but I am really at loss of words today ..

Will come back later maybe.