~ Imperfectly Perfect ~

I am not the type of girl who believes that one day a 'Prince Charming' will come sitting on a horse ( Or what-so-ever.. Of course we are in the 21st century.. Cars are much more superior to Horses.. lol.. :D ) and will take away my heart and so on.. ( Sounds highly melodramatic.. ) . I dont want to wait for any prince charming ( I dont even think he exists anymore.. ) or any other guy similar to him rather I believe I will meet the guy I deserve whenever the right time comes ( Yes, I believe in Destiny.. ).

I dont want my guy to be a perfect one ( Well no one is perfect! ).. I want him to understand me, look after the little things and happiness of life ( And love as well.. ) which normally people ignore in their busy schedules of life, to care for me ( Not in over excess of course.. ) and the most important of all Love me.

No, I dont believe money can buy everything and keep a person happy. What will I do of a dress ( A real expensive one ) if I have no one to look at me and tell me how am I looking ( Its useless..! ). I would prefer a cute candle-light dinner instead of a treat at a 5-Star restaurant ( I believe Everything has a speciality in itself.. ), I dont say 5-star treat is worthless but yes everything has its time ( And one should actually figure out what is better at that particular time.. ).

There are times I wish to feel Special ( Not always! ), when I wish I get surprises ( Yes I simply love surprises.. ) and get a few beautiful roses ( How much i love those flowers.. Every color of the flower is wonderful in itself.. actually even a rose a day will do.. :D ) or may be my favorite chocolate ( I dont feel like having sweet all the time.. ) Or any such small thing ( I have nothing in my mind to name right now but there are loads of things available and that increases the excitement of surprise! .. If I myself will tell what all i wish to get then what is the use of the word surprise.. ! ). 

I wont really like to celebrate my birthday with millions of people around me ( Thats type of  celebrating ravishly.. It has its own charm.. ) but well I am not really a social person so I would prefer to celebrate my birthday with my close friends ( Surprise one..! ) and after that celebration is over a really sweet celebration with my loved one ( Double Surprise..! ), thats what I call a real surprise and a real birthday celebration ( Only the thought delights me to a great extent.. :D.. I can actually imagine a room full of candles and some roses and soft music and few such things i like and a little cake and the person i love.. Perfect! .. Yea I got few melodramatic wishes too.. haha ). I am a fashion freak so any hot dress ( Single piece especially.. ) on such occasion would make me super happy.. :D. 

And well I believe the Guy i love should have the guts enough to hold my hands inf ront of everyone ( :) .. yes of course not when my parents are around and the time is not right.. lol ) and my perfect idea of proposing too goes a bit dramatic way ( But anyway i really love it.. ), I would like my guy to go down on his knees ( The place doesnt matter.. with what-so-ever he got for me and if he got nothing then too i dont really mind.. ) and then propose me and then lift me up in his arms ( Hugs do wonders.. :) ). Thats my idea of the 'Imperfectly Perfect' love.

People please dont mistaken me to be the cuddly and chubby girl who wishes to have everything romantic around her ( Absolutely NO! ) . I am the girl who loves to go 'Wild' despite the place and people ( ;).. Yes thats me ), I would like my guy to get drunk with me ( Whenever the time comes.. Vodka.. :D ) and party hard and dance with me and do every such thing possible ( Yes exactly..! enjoy life to the best.. ! ), sit in the rain for hours with me tension free ( Of course first of all dump the tension of getting sick.. ) and simply everything that is possible ( Travel around the world too..! ).

So people that is my idea of living my life king size and yes of course 'Imperfectly Perfect' ( Especially with my guy.. ). One more chapter from my life comes to a still here. I'll be back with a new and refreshing one very soon. :)

~ Comfort of Solitude ~

'Solitude' does'nt really sound good to maximum people i know. As much as my little brain tells me, Loneliness symbolises a 'Broken heart' ( Yes of course when you are dumped by the one you love.. ) because that is the moment when you feel like getting detached from this world and sitting in a corner of your room recalling things ( Ohh that sound really dramatic.. :D ).

But the Solitude i believe in has nothing to do with a broken heart ( ) in fact I find it very comfortable and very enjoyable. I believe that we do not need to escape from the world or rush to the Himalayas seeking peace of mind in fact i think it lies within us only, in our hearts and Solitude is the best way to search for that peace inside ourselves, the best way to get to know ourselves ( Time has made me go spiritual but nevertheless i am enjoying it, a new food for my soul.. ).

When i feel like being alone my favorite spot is my balcony along with my cupboard. I enjoy the coziness, the warmth, the feeling when i feel the breeze touching my face and blowing through my hairs ( I really find it difficult to describe those feelings in word.. ) with its calm pace and its gentle touch. Standing on the railing of my balcony I love to observe the happenings around me especially the innocent kids playing and jumping, their innocent cute talks, the way they walk holding the hands of their parents. It appears so nice to me seeing the innocent smiles on their faces and their twinkling eyes ( And well that is one of the reasons i enjoy being a kid with my twinkling eyes... :D ).

Solitude actually helps you to know yourself better and it teaches you enjoying your own company and trust me that proves out to be very useful in your life. When you actually come to know what you exactly are you dont have to pretend anything to anyone, and you get a wonderful chance to learn from your own life experience to the best,

I have read somewhere, 

"You cannot have a sound relationship with the other, unless you have a sound relationship with yourself. If you don’t have a firm ground beneath your feet, you will be wobbling and when you are wobbling, no one will ever ask for your support; instead, you will be seeking support from others."

And I believe in being Independent rather then seeking support from anyone. The day you start enjoying your company you will find a better person in you and to some extent need of other people's support will be reduced, and you will find yourself refilled with great confidence and confidence helps you to reach great heights ( I am feeling i should become a preacher.. lol.. :D ).

I enjoy Solitude but i do need my friends with me. I can not always be alone but yes sometimes i prefer being alone ( I have no regrets and i dont pretend what i am not.. ).

"Life never seemed easy to me, but hadn't expected so complicated it would be.

 In its course life showed me, what true friends are exactly.

 I really wish i was a butterfly, or may be a vampire not to lie.

 I know I am not really perfect, but i wish i could sort my problems without getting my eyes wet.

 I dont want life to be a child's play, but I wish it was easy to find the right way."

^^ Written by me.

And i found Solitude a really nice way to look for the solutions to my problems.

This chapter comes to an end here, will be back with a new one. :)

~ I Believe in 'Angels' ~

No no no i am certainly not talking about the fairies and Godmothers found in the princess stories who grant wishes to us. I am talking about my REAL LIFE Angels whom i found as my friends ( Thank you God for giving me such wonderful people in my life.. ). Friends, the people who make my life worth living, the people who rock my world, the people who stay with me no matter what and the people who tell me how crazy i am ( I enjoy being one.. ).

It is so damn difficult to imagine my life without you guys. Few years back i shifted to Lucknow( For the Non-Indian readers : Lucknow is a city in India.), with a curiosity as to my school will be, how my class mates will be. First day of my school i find myself the only girl wearing a plastic hairband( God that was so embarrassing but well it was compulsary to have one on your head in my previous school.) on my head, as soon as i noticed that i hid it in my bag.. :D .. and then surprisingly the first thing i was told by a classmate was about the affairs of various other classmates.. lol .. First few days were similar for me but after my summer vacations when i was shifted to my original section i found out my real-life angels.

The very first day i went into my new class i found a girl there with cat-like eyes named Shivani. Our class window turned us from strangers into friends. And thus i found my first angel :) . Then after a few days i made a new friend Anshika who was so not like the other girls, different, playful, sweet and what not. Similar and rhyming names automatically turned us into sisters ( all the teachers asked if we were sisters having similar name.. ) and today she is the only person who can 'Read' me along with understanding me, many people will agree with that.. :D. I am not an easy person to understand. I never knew but there was one more person in the same class who turned out to be my angel ( if the person did not have guts enough that time to tell you about your feelings then how the hell will you come to know.. :D ), but in my 11th grade i found my third angel too ( my mind is in conflict as to name that person or not, but he'll certainly come to know when he reads this.. :) ). And thus i found three angels of my life and i am so very proud to have them with me.

We also have some ' Dark angels' in our lives. I found one in my life too, it was not that he was a dark angel to me but he himself termed himself as a dark angel. I want you to know you were always good for me despite everything that happened and u still are the same for me i.e, good. I am really very thankful to you for teaching me the practicalities of life( although you have weird ways of explaining things.. ). I have learnt many a things from you. Thank you for everything. :)

Coming back to my other three angels well i love all three of you a lot( a lot a lot a lot.. ). I feel so blessed to find three of you in my life. The moments we spent together are the most beautiful part of my life. Shivani i just cant tell you how bad i felt when you left and how much i have missed you and your body swings ( can never forget that.. ) all this time. I really wish we meet very soon. I have never seen a girl like you, perfect combination of beauty with brains, and i simply loved your crazy acts. I know one day you will reach great heights and that day i'll tell people " Look that girl on the television is one of my best friends.. " ( and of course i expect you not to forget me..! ) I am so proud to have you in my life, I love you.

Anshika, well you simply are my life. I love you more than your boyfriend ( yes i am serious..). I would really like to tell you how protective i have felt about you in all these five years and how much i have hated to see you upset ( although it was very rare.. ). I dont really know if i have been your best friend or not but YES you are my best friend and i am so very proud of that. I say sorry to you if i have ever in these five years hurt you regarding anything and you are the one who knows me and gets me better than everyone in this world ( yes.. EVERYONE..). I hope you do superb work in your field and get a good placement ( and then you will send me clothes.. :D . P.S not to forget the Rajasthani traditional dress too.. :D ). I love you. :)

Now, my dearest third Angel, Doggiee ( dont frown reading this 'coz this  is what i call you with all my love :D ). Talking about you, you are the most decent and most nice guy i have come around in my life. It really shocked me when i started talking to you and found out you know more than me about me ( God how was that possible..! ) 'coz i am a girl very few people get to know so deeply about. I enjoyed our sweet and nice talks after school sitting on the marble slab ( of course i was the one speaking and you listening and thinking and enjoying... ). Slowly and steadily i realised that i had got really close to you all this while and you were one of those whom i could'nt afford to lose. I loved the way you took care of every small thing of me and understood me so very well. I felt so damn bad ( believe me it couldnt be worse.. ) when i hurt you. I am so thankful to you for always being there by my side and always having faith in me despite the situations. I so very love you for celebrating my birthday so sweetly (Anshika you are also credited for this.. and yes i do hate it because i made you sad.. ) and make me feel so special all the time (Ohh yes! not to forget, the cake was so yummmy..! ). Thank you for everything, I am so proud to have you in my life and I love you.

There are so many memories with all you guys that i cant even write everything here ( If i dont stop even the blog will ask me to shut up.. :D )

You guys rock my world and i love you all so so much. 

And thus, one more chapter from my life is recalled, I'll be back once again with a new one. :)

~ The magic of RAIN ~

In the Worldly terms, RAIN is the downfall of water from the clouds..

 But for me Personally Rain is not just about water drops falling from the sky, It is somthing more than that..

Something so Divine ( a wonderful gift from God ), so Fascinating, so Refreshing and really Magical.

Raindrops have such a soothing and healing capacity in them, a gentle feel of the rain drop on my palms grants me an inexplicable bliss. Rain brings so much of joy with it and it feels the environment with a mystique grace which is rare to find. 

The joy i get in dancing in the rain, jumping in the rain, feeling the rain is unparalleled to any other known feeling in this world. Its not just about getting wet in the rain and getting relieved of the heat but its about letting the rain drops touch your soul and your heart and getting lost in it.

Rain has an amazing tendency to bring back memories from the past including the one you regret, the one you love, the one you miss, almost anything and everything. It reminds you of the things you have lost, the things you had mistaken to be yours, the things which will always be yours. It gives you a adorable view to see the people and things around you. It makes you notice things in such a way you have never viewed before. It purifies everything even our minds and hearts. Rain overwhelms the emotions with in us and stirs it.

Rain is so magical that it can arise the emotions within the most practical person too, all it needs is the permission to touch ones heart. I cry in the rain and my tears get dissolved in the raindrops, I laugh in the rain and my smile gets brightened in the raindrops, I dance in the rain and my life gets wondrous with the raindrops, I think in the rain and my thoughts get purified with the raindrops.

Rain brings my innocence back to me, Rain brings my playfulness back to me, Rain brings my purified soul back to me.

"I simply love the rain, dripping through my window pane.

I am feeling the drizzle on my face, with its slow and calm pace.

I am feeling through the air, which seems so fair,

Making my hairs blow, inside me my emotions flow.

The rain appears so magical to me, I wish it never stops really..! .. "

^^ Written by me on a rainy day...

Words have fall short for me now to describe the magic of rain.

I'll be back once again with a new mystery from my life, with a new experience from my life.. :)

'I', 'Me', 'Myself' - Da Beginning.. :)

Hello ppl.. :)

So here comes another gal in da bloggers's community..

Startin wid mah introduction.. I am Vanshika, a gal who is on wid her life.. learning things from yet-to-b-explored experience.. I am one of da numerous bloggers but I am not similar to the other bloggers.. I have my own thinking, my own views and so i am here to express myself.

I am not here to compete to anyone, well i am here to share my life xperiences as i am advancin towards my adulthood.. i am here to get a few patient listeners whom i would like to help me with my inner turmoil when required.. nd a bit of passion for writing also made me come here.

Now 'Life' is da title i hve given to my very first blog.

Life for me is a bit of complication, a bit of confusion, making some decisions, never losing faith, proving urself someday or da oder nd njoying it thoroughly.. :)

Yeaa sumtym i have a broken heart, i start losing hope, i feel my life is so hell but den come my friends with dere very important role in my life nd make me relax, xplain me things- da practicality of dis world nd i feel better..

My life xperience has taught me not to trust people widout getting to know dem properly.. Xcessive trust on everyone can b disasterous nd dats da reason dat m very cautious today while chosin people who deserve to b in mah most special circle termed as my friends.. :)

Moving on to my educational field.. m still waitin for my councilling and admission for btech .. its my time now to prove my worth n m totally prepared for that. Speaking about my interests 'Music' is da food for my soul.. It helps me cope up wid da stresses of da daily routine.. 'M'ovies' r mah other interest.. i njoy all da genres of movie if its worth it..

Thats all i would like to write in mah very first post.. :)

Thats a bit of who i am n wot i wish to do in my life.. I'll b back very soon with my new post staring one more chapter from my life.. :)