There comes various moments in my life when I feel a chill moving down my body, a rush of emotions circulating in my body which, for an instant, takes my senses and logic away and leaves me with a sigh of despair as to what I couldn't achieve due to one or the other reasons.

I find myself most hurt when the realization comes to my mind that I couldn't achieve the career I always wanted to instead I am stuck with such a career which just deepens my scars and reminds me that my life is the result of a Broken trust which can never be brought back again! I find myself jealous as well as sad when I see people having beautiful relation with their family and accomplishing their goals in their lives, I feel sad for myself, for the situation I have been dragged into, for the relation I once shared with few people, for the goals I couldn't fulfill, for the dreams which shattered all at a time, for the loneliness I had decided to live with, for the life which seems to be just another test to pass for survival! 

I had never wanted my life to turn out this way and bring me on such a stage where I would be combating against my own Dreams to prove my worth. I wish my life never turned out this way, hurting me to the core and testing me to its Extreme. 

I am unable to understand what God has in store for me, its just a silver lining I am living with ,that

One day My Life will get Better 

and 

the shattered pieces of my Dreams will get together.

Life, Mysterious Life!

One moment is innocent, Other is so Wise,

Yes this is life!

One moment you desire, Other makes you Despair,

Yes this is life!

A flavour of joy with a twist of melancholy,

Yes this is life!

With people so close, but who are never yours,

Yes this is life!

A moment filled with Pride with a moment of disguise,

Yes this is life!

Harsh realizations and Happy celebrations,

Yes this is life!

A moment full of trust and situations unjust,

Yes this is life!

So colorful with emotions and wasted selfless devotions,

Yes this is life!

As simple as you make it but with so many conditions applied,

Yes this is life!

Wonderful surprises still with so many vices,

Yes this is life!

Simplified answers, Dignified questions,

Yes this is life!

A joyful Scream still a Boulevard of broken Dreams,

Yes this is life!

I had a belief, a strong one, that maybe this Birthday of mine gets me the most Special thing back that I have lost this year. After receiving a message today I felt as if my belief is going to come true.

Fingers Crossed for it!

Just want to say ‘Please Come Back!’.

While Waiting for you, I found a particular name in my Facebook Chat list. Although I know I won't be getting a single message from her but this stupid mind just hopes, everytime hopes that the Brain might be proved wrong but well guess Fate has something else in store for me.. Thia Heart still refuses to understand what fault it had committed that this happened today, Something so unexpected turned out so quickly! Proving me wrong and others right it left me all alone wandering among so many known faces which were once a major part of my life. I am afraid even more of afraid of messaging you first, I fear what if you don't reply , what if the only hope I have for you also vanishes with this step of mine...

So what is the status right now,

Have I lost My second Angel?

"We were both young when I first saw you

I close my eyes

And the flashback starts

I'm standing there

On a balcony in summer air

See the lights

See the party, the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd

And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said stay away from Juliet

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter

And my daddy said stay away from Juliet

But you were everything to me

I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

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I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you is fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you but you never come

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet

You'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you ... "

A very Beautiful song by Taylor Swift : Love Story.

And by this I just wish to say

Please Don't go, I Love You!

Yo yo yo people!

You are welcome in the world of this totally unique girl!

I am Cheerful, I am depressing, I am chirpy and I am sad,

And here I am with Unique friends and totally crazy for a lad!

Philosophic by soul, joyous by Heart

That defines me with the simplest effort!

I bet you would have never met a girl like me,

So confused. entirely crazy and all the time Silly,

But thats how I am with few exceptional days,

When people disturb my life by their annoying ways!

And thats when my friends and beloved come to my rescue,

And tell me how boring life would be without taking any of these Risks!

Ohh yea not to forget my numerous crushes,

Cena,Taylor,Robb!Damn you guys are so sensuous!

I typically hate being a typical girl,

so bitchy,so gossipy and filled with trouble!

Books and writing for me are my passion,

And not to forget I love the glamorous world of Fashion!

I am no Barbie Girl in the Barbie world,

I am original in this real world!

No faking , no making up in my life,

I am an optimist and I look upon the brighter side of life!

I have with me my other half, the other part of my soul,

Who fills my life with lots of joy and makes me feel so very Beautiful!

When the days seems dark and much darker are the nights,

He is the one who makes me feel alright!

What appears to me the end ,the quitting point,

He turns it into a simple test of God with lots of happiness to it joint.

I know he is the one who will always stand by my side,

No matter what and I know he is the one who in my heart will always reside.

Ohh yea not to forget new friends, new pals I met in my college,

Who entered my life when I was all alone and my heart had a strong urge,

For friends, for joys and for some new memories,

'Cause that was the time Old relations to me appeared like histories!

My life is something which can't be summed up by words,

Not one, not two , in itself it is a combination of various worlds!

Worlds which mean a lot in my life, my never ending life,

In which things keep happening. also arises the moment of strife,

But thats not the end of life neither the end of the blog,

And I'll be soon very back when some more part of my life will be revealed from this mysterious fog!

So guys and gals that was my post in my rapp-o style, hope you liked it! :)