19th June,2011, means tomorrow,

maybe it is going to be the last day I see my Mechanics teacher and maybe after that I'll never ever see him again in my life and this thought is killing me!

It feels horrible, I mean it purely horrible to know that this will be the last meeting tomorrow.

I wish to smile that tomorrow entire day he'll be in front of my eyes but my eyes are shedding tears for the pinch in my heart and tomorrow is the last day.

Its just a weird situation when I am feeling so damn helpless,

I know I can't stop him no matter what.

In fact I am happy that his dream got fulfilled but I am very very sad that I won't be able to see him again. 
Now no more going to the mechanical department maximum times possible,
No more Mechanics classes,
No more carrying Mechanics book to the college,
No more getting crazy on seeing him,
No more waiting in the corridor just to get a glance of him,
No more fighting to my friends for him,
Now nothing just nothing!
I wish I could ask him to stay but I'll never come in the way of his dreams and happiness.
God keep him happy wherever he goes, make his life wonderful, fulfill all his dreams.




Its just that I'll miss you....

Hi my beloved blog!

How are you??

I missed you so so much these days 

and finally I am free from my exams so I am here! :)

Today was one of the most beautiful day of my life,

I went to my college and there I saw,

the person I am crazy about, 

my mechanics teacher!!!

He is leaving our college as he got selected in IIT Madras for M.tech.

I am really very happy for him for getting into IIT is something very very great but I am sad for myself that I wont be able to see him anymore after 19th.

But keeping my sorrows aside me and a friend of mine decided to present him with a farewell greeting card in which I combined two more cards :D.

And today we went to gift the card to him and as we were standing I saw him coming towards us and I could feel my heart skip a beat!

I got more and more nervous as he came closer but then he acme and asked about our practicals and then I gifted him the card and then surprisingly my friend asked him to open the card in front of us and I almost had a mini heart-attack when I heard his request!

And then Sir opened the card and a beautiful smile came upon his face, he was so so happy and he felt so special, I just couldn't take my eyes off him!

He read the entire poem and then he asked my friend who wrote this and he pointed towards me

and then he said this is great!!

I could see the happiness in his eyes and I just felt so very happy, I went speechless!

I couldn't make out if I should say thank you or reply to the Thank you he was saying to us.

This was such a beautiful experience!!

Then he asked should I check the rest of the cards too, I said no sir check it out later when you are free and he just shook hands with us and said Thank you to us once again.

As I left I could feel myself going crazy, it felt so so good inside that I managed to make him feel special and bring a beautiful smile on his face!!

This day couldn't be better,

Thank you God for everything! :)

What the hell is wrong with my life!?

Am I born to live my life for the sake of others only, its equivalent to being a hostage or something, is that what my relations demand from me??

First your parents rule over your life,

then your boyfriend!!

And what about the life that I wish to live hmm?

Either you live that life with them or let go every dream you have!

You do a thing and then there are

Why?

Where?

Who?

Which?

How?

Why not me?

I just don't get it why can't a person have a personal life, especially if thats a girl!

You wish to do anything and there will be

'Oh lets do it together!'

Why?? Why can't we do something alone??

Are we so helpless that we need a company every time we wish to do something new in life or even meet up a friends of ours!!

Thats so damn ok if a boy does that and if a girl does that then

'People talk like that about you!'

Suddenly the entire World gets involved!

I just hate it!

I simply hate it!

My mind is going all blank right now,

I wish to cry but I am not able to.

I have such a pathetic life!

Right now just one thought is coming in my mind amidst all the Happiness I am feeling,

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations,

its not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end ...

I am very happy today! :)

Thank you God for this wonderful day and 

few wonderful people! :)

Well once again the disappearing phase!

No stupid excuses this time, its just that I am having my main exams till the 13th and then my practicals so I get no time for writing these days.

I just wish these exams get over very soon and I go out to some place to freshen up my mind.

Right now I am a bit stressed over something and I wish it gets normal very soon! 

Its like my mind is in a total blank state right now and I have nothing to write.

God make everything normal please!